After the sixth cup of coffee my head starts spinning, the caffeine without sugar is not being very friendly with my stomach and I feel like I will vomit at any moment. I struggle to keep my eyes open but my eyelids seem to have three tons of weight each. I turn on my music player, I put the headphones and look for the most active music possible, I begin to walk around the room moving to the rhythm of the music, I get dizzy, I throw the small coffee thermos of the desk and then I notice that dancing I just ended all the energy that I had left. I fall on the bed, I try to get up but my arms can‘t hold me up.
⁃ “Don’t fall asleep, don’t fall asleep, don’t fall… asleep, don’t… fall… as… leep…, don’t…” -.
I open my eyes, I look around, everything is the same except for the fact that the carpet has absorbed all the coffee. I try to move but my body doesn’t respond, I start to despair, I feel something approaching me … it’s an animal, I know, I don’t understand why I know it, but I know it. It goes up to my bed and come close to me … it’s a wolf … I try to scream, hit something, get the attention of someone who takes me out of here, the animal is on my back, I feel its heat, I despair more, it breathes in a hectic way on my neck, I’m afraid, I want to escape, I can‘t get it, its intensity increases, I feel it closer, I panic and I realize that my room is with the light on … I only had the lamp on …
⁃ Laura! – yells Jaco
I find myself screaming when I open my eyes, I tremble, I am terrified, I almost do not hold my breath and I feel that my heart is going to come out.
⁃ It’s ok, it’s ok, I’m here – he’s breathless – I got you.
I cling to his arms like a child in their mother’s arms after facing the most terrifying of their monsters. His hand holds my head on his chest, the other covers my back with the blanket. His heat calms me although I think that his eyes are more effective, they are the ones that always bring me back to reality. He caresses me, he doesn’t move from my side, he waits for me to calm down with an infinite patience, watching each one of my breathings.
⁃ Jaco – I speak to him
⁃ … don’t let me sleep.